FOREVER ISN’T SO LONG
I saw her once and dreamed to see her again,
Although the chances were slight that I would.
She was in a place I never thought she would be,
But she found a place in my heart right away.
Immediately the future was forecasted and she was in it,
The curls in her hair, her smile and her stare,
Into my eyes she would look and fill me with joy,
So foolish I am to have not fought for her heart,
So foolish I am to let her go so easily,
So foolish I am to stand and do nothing,
What a fool I am to not realize how she loved me so,
Love isn’t a test of IQ, it isn’t an examination to be passed,
Love comes from the heart, it is felt, it can last.
She stood across from me, trusting I would love her until the end,
I promised I would, but broke my word instead.
I never intended to cause what I did,
Now I vacillate on the streets alone, wondering if I can be forgiven,
If not for anything else, but my broken word to her.
So many vengeful things have filled my heart,
Hatred has crossed paths with my consciousness,
All in an attempt to make sense of what is already gone.
I never knew pain before this time,
To do what I did is such a crime,
To abandon someone who needs your love,
To leave them in mystery when they desire understanding,
To be cold when compassion is the answer.
The wound may never fully heal,
But for you who will understand these words,
The one filled with hatred really does love.
Affinity doesn’t naturally fade,
No one can walk away from where there was happiness and simply forget it.
What will last forever now,
Is my prayer that the one I hurt will find true happiness,
And that my final impression in her heart, mind, and soul, will be joy.
To Janeena
